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你的一句话顿时让我的心碎了~

我会学习不再依靠你~

主啊，距续的破碎我~

我需要更刚强~因为神要我刚强~

主啊，谢谢你让我在你的计划里面~

神的手不断向我伸向，把我从1楼拉去5楼~

已经看到那画面，还没到我开始惧怕了，因为我在往下看~

但，我没忘记过我是敢敢死队的家长~

全力以赴，全体投入，坚持到底，永不放弃

Activate (=

finally my blog activate again ...
say bye to CC , coz i got my own laptop and i can on9 anytime adi ..^^
anyway , now only i realise im changed ..
Cox every of my step You are guilding me ...
Thanks for the promises You gave ..
2more month get into a brand new year ....
LETS GIVE ALL OUT-B4 END OF YEAR CYC WILL BE THOUSAND PPLS~
greater things have yet to come , greater thing are yet still to be done ..(=
and i have been so long never chat with you liao ,
actually when u telling me your living life , i feeling up set ..
coz u starting out of the circle ..
but one thing is i still feel peace , cox God is still in your heart deeper inside..
i can feel it seriously , your heart still have Him ..
You love HIm , and wat i wanto you is He love you too , His love never leave u b4..
stay strong ... my line will be on anytime,my light will be on anytime, bcoz of you..
and i enjoy your sharing, thanks ...love ya ...
Matthew 6:33 & Romans 8:5-9

差

我真的可以做到吗？

我比一些看起来软弱但又能坚持的人还要差~

我累了~

坚持得好累~

低潮的日子不是过了吗？

主啊，攻击来了...我寻找不到你~

我听不见你的声音你知道我有多彷徨吗？

我也很想装到很坚强~

我真的很想~

但，为甚么往往都失败~

我只知道我不能软弱下来~

还有你们在等待着我~

耶稣，如果连我自己都放弃自己的时候~

你要抓紧我~

母亲节

今年的母亲节我没有任何的行动~
不是我不爱你而是我不想浪费钱买无畏的东西~
只希望你会给我一点的时间~
我会努力赚更多的钱来让你过好的~
这也是我的愿望~
昨晚在教会举办的母亲节的聚会，泪不端的在掉~
我不断的祷告~
我相信下一年的母亲节你会出席~

今年满多人对我说母亲节快了~
其实还蛮开心~没想到他们也把我当成是属灵的妈妈~
尤其是有“你”，听到你对我说你成经也是我带过的~
也许你不知道,我的内心是多么的感动~

对着你我总是像个小孩。。

我也不知道为什么~

pain

sometimes i really hope tat we will lost contact..

i dont want to know how you are ..

Can i ?

cause my heart is pain when i know you got problem .

you always make ppl tat care you one worry about you ..

can u dont make me worry you ?

not want you hide your problem ,

but overcome your problem can ?

i love you

angry

wat wrong with u huh??

i use my heart treat u as my friend den u reply me like dis is it ?

i damn mmu song you ...

wat happen now?

please tell me if i did something wrong or wat .

wat u tell me about u b4 all also bullshit ..

i belive you are serious but wat i see is totally different ..

dont act there ..STUPID

i keep tell myself i must be strong ..
i keep remind myself i must be strong no matter wat ..
but ... i really weak ..
act strong really not easy ..
especially act strong infont of ppl ..

explain?

im not happy today ..
i dont hope got any misunderstanding with anyone and i dont like ..
but sometimes explain will getting worst ..
so i dont choose to explain ..
let it be .. although i care how ppl look at me ..
but i also choose not to explan ..
God you know me well .

keep on changing

Thanks God .. let me know wat i wanto be ..
one day i will transfer to advertising & promosion department..
i know you are leading me ..
although still got long long journey ..
or ppl will think impossible ..
but i will keep belive and follow You ..
pooikee have nothing , but pooikee only have You ..

i will keep on changing ..
my look , my attitude , my mindset , my heart ..
.........................................................................................................................

recently i close up with 2 gal ...
one is my working partner WING ..
the first day i meet up her , she make me think back my friend nyuk ling..
her look , her voice almost the same ..OMG..
she are a good person ..and very ti tie ..always remind me dis and tat .TQ ^^
i will treasure every moment we work together ..
another gal , you are so funny ..
actually we are not close , maybe start to close up soon ??????
haha i dont know , but got the feeling hope to know you more ..

lei lei .. i miss you ...waiting you come back .. got alot of thing want talk to you ..

HAK ZAI !

my MOOD

when i reach office the first thing i do is switch on computer and open my blog..
yesterday , after i view my blog ,suddenly my mood is keep turning down ..
because i know and comfirm i really make u disappointed ..
sigh , dis is my weakness .. i know wat i say already no use ..
because everything is passed..
i understand your feeling... cox i tried before too ..
sorry again .. SORRY ..
another thing make my mood turn up ..
because i know God answer my prayer ..
and i really saw how God lead you and i saw u are going to the right track ..
means you are under God planing .. yea, you level up de loo ..
but , next test is coming also ..more hard ..
no matter wat .. belive God is with you all the time ..
gambate ..
GOD you are so great .. i love YOU ..

this week

wao ... so damn fast .. already one week pass ..

how is my job now?

ok ok .. so so le .. hehehe ..

eh , today we got meeting ..is whole VOIR group stuff meeting eh ..

sure no chair laa where to find so many chairs oh ..

during meeting i acting concentrate,in fact im not ..haha

but i know dis meeting is for next week stock check one ..

hmmmmm so next week cant wear nice adi ..wear Tshirt ..

why ? because of want go warehouse stock check loo .sigh ....

my job really busy one .. i have time to updated bcox i skip my lunch ..

this week the whole week after work den go church .

going to prayer , prayer walk , straight evengalistic like last time b4 christmas .

mean i early morning go out till night ..

but i very guai adi , i will sleep at 12 every day hehehe ..

yeah , tmr is off day woohoooo ..

dont know how is my next week ...

good luck to me ba .. :)

p/s: choy ling .. im so sorry dis year late wish u again ..serious i rmb

your b'day one .. just tat i no time to send and then slowly forget jor ..

i knw i very bad .. dis year is your 21st bday .. most important year ..

i cant celebrate to you and the only can do is message i also late .....

yissh laa , i very angry myself also .. plssss dont angry me k ...plsss....

you are in my special list .. you are important to me .. im SORRY ..

anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ... frien4ever <3

fight for YOU

i saw someone blog ..

here to give some comment ..

dont always find someone go here and there because of scare lonely .

although i not very close with u ..

but i know u are a good person ..

anyway , dont hold thing too tight ..especially friendship ..

yea is hard for those who are zong qing zong yi one ..

so i like wat i am now and who i am....dont care everything ..

wat is important in our life now?

yeah , future ..

my buddy always tell me think and plan for your future ..

she always remind me .. but dis lesson i take long time to learn it ..

so now ... i only want be a good driver , be a yes gal ..

mean who want me help tell me , i try my best to help no matter wat ..

wat i wanto do now is fight for my future,fight for my family and fight for Jesus ..

3rd day

now only i know..... im not admin .. i am sales coordinator ..haha

all boutiques & consignment supervisor also under me ..

hahaha .. no laa .. ... hmm today is my 3rd day ..

damn busy one .. many things to do ..

but good for me also .. because i very scare nothing to do ..

and company provide me a postpaid phone number ..

good right ahaha .. but i adi got 2 number .. how den?sigh fan also ..

today 15 mar

yesterday dont know why cant sleep well ..

very angry myselve,coz i worry today will be very tired ..

coz today is my first day work at there ..

workng time now , but nothing to do den updated ..

walao , here no msn no facebook ..sien ..

luckily still can blog ..and still got skype haha but no wedcam..

the gal tat i gonna replace her only 18 years old ..

she only can teach & company me one more month ..

den i have to work alone ..

not easy .. damn lot work to do ..damn lot report wanto do ..

dont feel like wanto work . cause damn lot things wanto remember .

ya i feel stress ..but i wanto overcome all the stress.

i want change , i dont want same like last time adi ...

Dear Lord ... i need you .. lead me on ...

and im here to pray for ashley ..

Lord , u know every of her problem well ...

i know You are guiding her to move on anther level ..

cox she already pass her level tat u gave her and going on to another level ..

Holy Spirit please stay around her all the time and protect her ..

let her feel you and touch by you once again and again...

Lord thank You tat love her so much ...

in Jesus name i pray ..AMEN

hope..

today go interview - again ...
haha , really funny dis time ...
waiting their call ..
not very worry ..
Sun xi ji ran BA .....
if this is God plan sure will open the road for me ..
here wanto thanks one person ..
is you edwin ..really thanks you alot alot ..
u only sleep 2 hour , den wake up so early fetch me go ..
u really friend enough ...
serious , my mouth say u are one of my best friend ...
is truth laa .. but compare to jh them i care them much than u ..
i wanto say sorry to you ..
but now , yea .. i will change my mind ...
thank you for helping me all the time especially when i in need ..
friend forever ..

LORD , i need you ...i cant do anything now ..
lead me on ..

我知道最近的我变成了另外一个人~
我也顶不顺我自己~
以前遇到什么问题都好只不过是发泄几句或自爆自弃~
但，这几完全不同~
因为这次彻底的看见自己有多么的失败~
我把自己封闭了~
我知道最近的我很任性~
对不起....
我又失败了~

just wanto cool down

很辛苦啊....

TT

my heart is pain ..
cause i know you going to leave us ..
everyone mood is turning down .. especially him ..
i just saw your post ..
the real you ..
sometimes i feel that you are cruel ..
how come u can so easy to put down thing tat you have ..
but do you know i always learn something from you ..
tat is , nothing more important than our future ..
need to fight for our future ..
leng ...... i missss you .....
your forever stone angel ..

the day

2010,my 1st post ..
start from now , when i saw your picture my tear will drop down ..
not because i cant live without you , is i use to haveing you in my daily life ownly ..
25 days more .. actually i hope u can spend sometime with me even a hi tea ..
but i not dare to ask from you .. funny ?
i really cant imagine the day you leave .. i think 10 pack of tissue also not enough to me .
you look strong .. this is what i see ..
but , inside maybe you are not .. everytime you not happy or having problem also wont show out, this is wat i like ..you are rock ..
yea, im sad .. but i know the most is you ..cause you need to put down things that you love..
finally , i see ....how God's has train up you to be independent from the hurt He gave you .
HE very love you .. you cant survive at UK if you are the pass Ashley ..
anyway , thank you for tolerate me the pass seven years ........
waiting you come back to continue our 8 years friendship ..
just to let you know you are the best buddy ..
love you leng ..
i will be strong ...