Help..

very STRESSssssss..
very suffer..
but no one i can tell..
Bcox i'm a leader...
i very scare,i very worry..
serious i dono how to dai zhu..
i dono how to lead prayer ..
somehow i dono how to pray..
dis friday i s the first time give message..
i do scare..feel like give up..
but i wan to try,i wan to step out..
but my heart keep telling me no one weill support me..
your cg member will dum you if i can lead..
how?kar yan dont treat me as a leader..
hui jie still new..she know how to support?
help,no car,no knowledge ,can i be a leader?