恐怖

你真的很恐怖...

在这个人面前这样，在另一个面前就别样..
我应该怎样和你相处？
因为你以前的我又再次的回来..
我现在好像完全都控制不到自己..
我现在唯一能做的是使你讨厌我....

Ignore

i heard her bad things again..
and is from her close friends..
wat the hell..is her college friends..
i dont care laa..i know is not fair to her..
but if she know sure she will very sad..

Hurt

without Him i will die
without XXX i will????
i hate dis week..
one word..HURT

The kind of pain cant express

the kind of pain cant express..
recently no one minutes i smile & happy..
alots of worries..
just now leader told me tomorrow no need to involve them first..
and i reply him."they adi know got on,they sure very hurt if cant involve"..
he told me no worry,LF will talk to them..
i dont know why will reply him i scare they will leave..
i very hurt,i very sad,very scare...
wat the funny things is ?she bring me come and at last she leave..
wat can i do?
can i be selfish ask her to stay?she will ?
i think i wont hold..
cause i know she not happy at here..
Lord,save her please..dont leave her ..she scare alone..

我是谁？你是谁?

无端端下起雨来..
现在的心情很down..
我真的很没用..我真的没有成担能力..
主啊..为什么你还要卷选我..
我每次都让你失望..我很怕看到你失望的样子..
我很无助..我不知道要怎样做.
我不知道可以做些什么？
对不起，对不起..
我自己都不爱我自己，我怎样去爱你的羊..
我开始的不了解在深处的我..
我是谁？我在问..我是谁？

Help..

very STRESSssssss..
very suffer..
but no one i can tell..
Bcox i'm a leader...
i very scare,i very worry..
serious i dono how to dai zhu..
i dono how to lead prayer ..
somehow i dono how to pray..
dis friday i s the first time give message..
i do scare..feel like give up..
but i wan to try,i wan to step out..
but my heart keep telling me no one weill support me..
your cg member will dum you if i can lead..
how?kar yan dont treat me as a leader..
hui jie still new..she know how to support?
help,no car,no knowledge ,can i be a leader?